now this shit is personal

SOOO. I just got on the wii fit.. last week it said 171... this week... 179... WTF!!!! I know how it happened.. I know what I did to gain the weight. I have to try.. I mean realllllly try. I am doing a fund raiser to help my pal Annie adopt from Etheopia. I am up to $4.50 for each pound that I lose. My goal is to lose 20 pounds. I have gained 30 pounds since I have been dating Ryan.. which is just a couple months over a year.. that is how much people gain when they have a baby.... A BABY!!!! I think that I really may be a food addict... maybe I will try a little OA in addition to weight watchers.

5 pounds of me

Are gone...and I promise myself that those pounds will never see my ass again until I get pregnant.

so

I kind of love weight watchers. I love that after I eat, I don't feel guilty. I really wasn't eating completely horrible, but I was just eating too much. I have yet to weight myself, I am going to tomorrow. My new favorite treat for myself is OIKOS carmel greek yogurt. It is only 2 points and it as as good as ice cream. I feel like I am weighing my options on what to eat. Over all, I am happy.

The Truth

I do know why I keep gaining weight even though I am "dieting" and exerecizing. I have been eating my feelings for months. I am not going to buy my purse and instead am going to take that money and join weight watchers.


-I just signed up. I have lost weight by weight watchers and excersizing before. Fingers crossed.

3 am parties on my face

The bad mood continues. Mr Boy woke up in full party mode at 3a. I layed there for 2 hours thinking about how much I hate my job, then I got up and watched food inc., and then fell back asleep around 7, waking up at 8:30. All of this would not be a big deal, except for I want to punch everything. The thing that I was looking forward to was getting my nasty hair done. I have been growing it out and it looks like Daria and one of the Jonas brothers had a baby on my head. Back to the haircut, Ryans friend was supposed to do it, but she is sick so I am getting it done on Friday. I am impatient. Also, it seems like every time I get on the wii, I have gained weight. It is so frustrating and I am on the verge of tears right now. I have never had this much trouble losing weight in my life. Does anyone know where I can score some meth. Ryan has a mouthgaurd. Maybe if I wear it while doing meth, I wont get meth mouth. I had intended to take a walk on my break, but I though that feeling sorry for myself on my lunchbreak was a better idea. I think i will do a video via netflix when I get home.

ouch.. still.. and a horrible day at work

I did not even try to get up early today.. I am in a hulk smash mood. I had the worst day at work ever.. its cold. I tried to take the boy for a walk and he wasn't having it. Wii fit it is.

OUCH

I am so sore today. I took Lego for about a mile walk, but that was all I had it me. I am pretty worn out, so I am keeping it short.. 1mile today.

Breakfast- cashews and 2 clementines